the mind of madness

Skin

They say that if you love somebody that you would never cause harm to them, but I say if you love somebody you would never try to leave them, or lie to them ……..she left a trail of broken promises.

I think that the way to show someone how much you truly love them is to do anything to stop them from leaving, even if it means you have to hurt them, but one day they will understand.

I sat at my desk humming a tune my mother used to hum to me, I never learned the words to it. I was putting together the wall paper that she had torn apart when she tried to leave me.

I could still hear her screams the first thing I felt was remorse I loved her, I still do, but than I remembered all the horrible things she had said to and than I became angry, I didn’t want to hear her screams they became unbearable I stopped sowing and grabbed my ears in pain and squeeze my eyes shut I fell to my knees.

“Shut up, shut up!”

My parents had died when I was twelve because of that I inherited this huge house after 12 years of sexual physical and emotional abuse that was the least they owed me they were the start of my collection.

Banny came to the door in a white wife beater and tight blue pants, she wasn’t like most girls she had kind of this bad ass attitude, long black hair and hazel eyes but my favorite part about her was her dark Carmel skin, it was smooth and had a natural smell to it, I grabbed her hand and kissed her.

“Hey beautiful, how are you?” she yawned and sighed

“I got a back ache baby, and you give the best massages.” I smiled; she smiled than took a step towards me. “Among other things you do well.”

Next thing I knew she was laying on my bed her shirt was off and I was massaging it, touching her skin so smooth so beautiful she began to moan.

“That feels so good baby.” She slighting pushing me and turns so now she is on her back I crawl to her and she puts her hand down my pants, I grabbed her other hand and started rubbing it against my face, than my bare chest I stopped and pulled away.

“I gotta go?” I said.

“What” I stand up and started to put on my shirt.

“I remember there, was something I had to do?’’

What, right now?’’

“yes.” I leaned in and kissed her. “I will be back, ok you stay here ok?”

“Ok, I love you Tino” she said as I walked to the door I turned and smiled.

“Love you too Banny.’’

I made my way to the car, I always did feel bad about my hidden life, the thing I fear most was losing Banny, I loved her, more than I loved my collection, at least I thought I did.

I get to downtown Minneapolis where there is a women, she stock out more than the other women long blonde hair short leather skirt and fishnet stockings when I saw her skin it almost made me drool, I stopped and rolled down the window on the passenger seat, when she looked at me I motion towards her. She made her way to the car.

“How are you?” she asked. I held up a wad of cash and smiled.

“Get in.” she climbed in. “hey didn’t you take out my friend Nicole last week?’’

“Um, I don’t recall.”

Oh, I haven’t seen her

Oh

Well you’re pretty cute, what do you like?

I like it rough. I said with a smile on my face. She smiled and looked between my legs.

“I see you are already, ready.” I smiled. “I always am.”

I took her to a small house that I had bought, it was for me too clean up my wall paper start it before I went back home and put it on my wall.

“Wow so much money, yet such a small house” I smiled and unbuckle my seat belt, she does the same.

“One of my two houses, this is the smaller one.”

“Why can’t we go to the bigger one?”

“Because my wife is there. “ I opened the door and started to walk to the house she fallowed me I opened the door walk to the living room and sit on the couch. It was a pretty small house and I mostly spent my time in the living room and in the basement the living room had one black couch with a brown wooden table that always had a knife on it, I lay on the couch.

I am a little nervous. She walked towards me as she did she unbuttoned down her shirt.

Don’t be. She got on top of me and began to kissing me I grabbed her boobs and began to rub her back.

You’re so sexy. She moaned. I hated prostitutes they annoyed me I couldn’t take it anymore and stabbed her in the back. She looked at my eyes wide opened, mouth wide opened, a tear fell from her eye and I began kissing her as I turned the knife I pulled it out as she fell than pushed her off the couch.

I grabbed her lifeless body by the hair and pulled her down the stairs, I took a saw and began to cut away her skin from the rest of her body blood was falling from the table to the ground, I looked at her in the eyes, that was always the part that got to me, it made me remember the first time I killed somebody, my mother, I got sick of my parents touching me, hurting me so I killed them. Than put them on the wall in my basement, they loved that house, more than they loved me so I wanted to keep them there forever, after I finished taking all her skin off I soaked it in ammonia to hide the smell of decaying fleshed then began to sow it together.

After I finished sowing I tock the remaining pieces the eyes the heart and my favorite part, the brain then through the rest away.

I grabbed the wallpaper and put it in a gym bag than made my way back to my house I started to open the door when Banny opened it she was standing wearing one of my shirts, I smiled.

“Hey.”

Hey. She began to give me a hug than backed away. “God you smell whets in the bag?” I smiled.

Nothing, it’s for work, I gotta finish something downstairs.

Can I come? I turned to face her as I did my smile went away.

“I was kidding.” She said.

Oh….I know. I smiled and kissed her on the cheek. I love you, I will be back alright?”

“Ok, I love you too.”

I walked down the stairs and placed the gars on the shelves eyes, heart brain, tock off my shirt than soaked the skin in my special paste than began to put the new wall paper on my wall, I began to touch the skin, because of the ammonia the smell was gone but it wasn’t the smell that turned me on, it was the feeling soft, once in a while I would rub lotion on it to preserve it, skin of all different color I loved it, but I loved skin with tattoos.

I made my way up to my room where Banny was, sitting.

You finished? She asked.

Yeah, can I ask you something? I asked making my way to the bad.” You love me right?’’

“More than anything.”

No matter what?

Of course, always and forever.

Promise. I asked getting in bed. She smiled and put her hand on my chest.

“Promise.”

A knock at the door pulls me away from my thoughts I look towards the door and began to walk towards it standing at the door was detective Ramirez he was head of Banny’s case.

Did you find anything out? I ask. He shakes his head.

No I am sorry, I came by to see if there was anything, you didn’t tell me.” I grab my head tears start to fill my eyes.

“No, no I don’t.” he put his hand on my shoulder.

Hey, if I find anything you will be the first to know.

“thanks.” He starts to walk away and I start to walk in the house.

“Oh, and Tino.”

Yeah.

“Get some sleep, you look terrible.” I smile and close the door.

She turned to me. “Can I ask you something?”

“Sure.”

“Why do you always ask me stuff like that?”

“Like what?”

Like you are hiding something, that you have a secret I would leave you for.” I slowly turned away from her.

“Is there something you’re not telling me?” I avoided her eyes and took a breath.

“Everyone has skeletons in there closet.” She grabbed my face and turned it towards her.

“I can keep a secret.” I smiled and pulled away.

Can you, I will tell you when you are ready. She smiled and playful punched me.

I would beat it out of you, but I am too tired.

Thank god.

Don’t thank him, thank your cute face. She pinched my cheeks than turned away from me, kissed her.

I love you. She hugged me tight and lay on my chest.

I love you too. She said and wrapped her arms around me. Before soon she had fallen to sleep I sat up in bed for awhile, feeling her skin on mine I moved my hand to her thigh and began to massage her. Than moved up between her legs she started moaning than I started to pinch her, I didn’t even realize what I was doing her moans turned into cries I pulled the blanket off of her and exposed her naked body, I reached out grabbed her by her breast and twisted.

Tino... stop. She screamed. But I couldn’t stop hurting her, I didn’t know what was wrong with me I got on top of her and started thrusting into her, as she begged for me to stop I went faster she tried to push me off than started to scratch me, I scratched her too blood started to fall from our bodies and our blood mixed together, she screamed as I ripped off her skin.

I woke up in a cold sweat gasping for air knocking Banny off of my chest she jumped up.

“Tino whets wrong? I looked at her wide eyed. Tino, baby are you ok?

It was just a dream baby.

I am sorry.

For what? I turned away and she turned my face towards her. I kissed her.

For waking you. She smiled. I did as well I spent the remainder of the night starring at the wall wishing it was covered in skin, I thought of myself as a vampire when it came to skin, maybe one day the urge would get to strong, as Banny slept I ran my hand down her skin, her soft skin. I rolled out of the bed and walked to the basement I slowly raised my hand to the most recent spot of skin, what would she think of me if she ever saw me, for what I was.

“Tino!’’ I turned quickly to face the top of the stairs where Banny was standing.” Baby what are you doing.”

“nothing.” I said and ran up the stairs I grabbed her by the hips and pulled her towards me. “I just had to grab something.” She touched my face.

“You couldn’t sleep?”

“No.”

“Must have been a pretty bad dream.”

Yeah. She touched my face. “I can do something to make you have good dreams “. I smiled.

“what do you have in mind?” next thing I knew we were both naked in my bed I was trusting into her I had my hands on her boobs both of us were sweating and moaning, after I fell to my side, I needed skin.